Undiscovered
Feelings of Premature Babies
and Has
Your Inner Child Gone To Never Never Land? |
Robina is a Reiki Master in Suffolk, England, where she produces flower essences and related products for sale from her website "Rose Cottage Flower Essences" at http://www.rosecottagefloweressences.co.uk/. She and her sister, Sue Stothard, are Inner Child Healing facilitators. |
Undiscovered Feelings of Premature Babies My sister and I were both premature babies. At the time of writing, I am 46 and she is 53. The feelings we experienced at that time have recently surfaced for both of us. We now realize that the feelings we experienced then have colored our lives. Recently, I connected to a devastating and deep feeling of sadness; it was like a black hole of emotion. This has occurred twice whilst I have been at a Reiki Share. As I talked about the feeling, I remembered the story of my birth. I had been born early one morning at home, seven weeks prematurely. It was in the 1950s in a small Suffolk (England) village. The local physician came to our home, and convinced I would not survive, wrapped me in a blanket, and put me on the front seat of his sports car to take me to the Ipswich Hospital. There I was put straight into an incubator. The next day, my father telephoned the hospital to see how I was. The Ward Sister said she wanted me named because it was still thought I would die. Mother, recovering from the birth, was of course not able to visit the hospital straight away. As I recalled this story, my heart began to race, and tears came to my eyes; I realized I had identified the cause of the feeling. This experience has since happened again, and as I talked the emotion surfaced once more. As a young child, this deep emotion surfaced several times, and I remember crying myself to sleep in this deep misery, never knowing from where it came. So, at last I have the opportunity to clear this emotional baggage. For my sister, she has a deep feeling of being sad and alone and not wanting to be so. Here is her story: Throughout my life I have always got fed up, down or depressed on or around my birthday in early September. It has often lasted from a few days to two months (longer if it was connected to a life changing trigger). The onset always seemed to be September no matter what avoidance tactics I tried to use. For many years I had thought (without any evidence) that this could be linked to being born prematurely in September and being in an incubator for two months. It wasn't until I did Reiki that I realized this could indeed be the case. After a course of Metamorphic Technique about three years ago, I have never been depressed at that time again. Recently, however, another aspect of this came up following a family emergency. As I dealt with it (alone initially), I was overwhelmed with waves of deep sadness, fear and unbearable feelings of being absolutely and totally alone and unable to cope. As I discussed this with my sister later, I was suddenly able to see the pattern. I thought about all the other life changing events in my life when I had felt these emotions. When would I have had my first experience of being and feeling totally alone, isolated, full of fear, with intense sadness? Answer, when I was born two months prematurely, taken from my mother, and put in an incubator for two months! Imagine it: You spend 8 to 9 months inside your mother, hearing her heartbeat and her voice and so on. Then, abruptly you are parted, and put into an incubator. Inevitably, you experience deep feelings -- probably of loss, anger, sadness and fear -- and you are helpless to do anything about it. So the first stage of your emotional pattern is set and this setting of emotional patterns carries on for six years. This pattern is what you repeat throughout your lifetime until you clear it (or not). Your life experiences are geared around these first six years of life. One day, another member of the Reiki Share told me that her son had been premature, and that he found he could not hug her. My sister and I also share this experience; we found it very difficult to hug our mother or to have her hug us. The bonding seemed not to be there on her side and certainly was not on ours. In fact, a part of me felt unloved. There are many premature babies in the world, and many mothers of premature babies who for some reason or another were not able to spend time with their baby in the incubator. I am convinced this scenario causes emotional pain on both sides, and I hope this article brings it to the fore to be noticed. My sister and I are lucky in that we are both Reiki Masters, and we use flower essences to reveal our emotional pains that have been hidden away, and so can heal ourselves. Many others not so aware will go a lifetime and not discover these feelings or understand the impact they have on their emotional lives. |
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It has been said (by Barbara J. Marciniak), "You are afraid to feel. Your feelings are vast and all powerful, yet for many of you they are crosses of shame. However, it is through your feelings that you can ascertain what you value". We discern our world through our feelings. They are an unsourced tool for discovering more about ourselves and the world about us. Yet, as the quotation so rightly says, we are afraid, nay terrified, of feeling. We block our feelings and hide from them, and as a result we overload our cellular memory with our emotional baggage. Our bodies are perfect records, holding every nuance of our lives. They hold all our memories of the things we have done to others and how we felt about it at the time, the judgments we have made since. Besides all this, there is what others have done to us and our emotions surrounding these things. We also hold shocking or traumatic memories from our lives which can appear to come "out of the blue". There are no accidents or coincidences, the universe works and everything is a part of the rich tapestry, even though we may be unaware and cannot see it at the time. To illustrate this, I recently had an opportunity to clear a very painful memory from my birth canal. I have shoulder pain and so I went to see my colleague who specializes in "un-winding" the tissues. She found that the primary site was not my shoulder, but my birth canal. As she said the words, the memory of the birth of my eldest daughter eighteen years ago surfaced, along with all of my feelings about it at the time. As I began to cry, my colleague felt a sudden "whoosh" as the birth canal released the tension and "unwound", I was at that moment of release, able to feel the feelings, acknowledge them and let them go. Just imagine, for eighteen years this memory had been sitting in my tissues! Emotional energy such as this can cause vibrational damage to the cells and eventually pathology. One of the feelings that came up for me was shock. As I am like a terrier when I know I have something to clear (I "worry at it" until I achieve my intention), I took some Bach "Star of Bethlehem" flower essence which is for shock held in the cellular memory. Five days later at a Reiki Share, some more shock came up for me. It was a fourteen year old memory this time. My next door neighbor had hung herself, and her husband came around to ask us to see if she was dead. Two sets of memories from fourteen and eighteen years ago, all filed away and stored in my body as I had held onto them. I am very self-aware, continually working on myself and watching for signs, feeling the feelings as they come up for me so that I can acknowledge them, embrace (accept) them, and then let them go. However, previous to becoming a Reiki Master and taking part in P'taah workshops as well as reading the P'taah books, I had never heard of any of these concepts. Fortunately, there are now many self help books and people like myself who wish to teach and inform. As a physiotherapist, I realize how many people come with pain and that there is an emotional component to the problem. |
Putting Flower Essences on The Map In this world of greater understanding that all things are connected, the idea of sending healing, love, and blessings is not so impossible. We have science backing up metaphysics, such as String Theory. Mathematics has always known that many energies exist, and Stephen Hawkins has proven interdimensionality. My idea and ongoing project is to get as many people as possible to put bottles of flower essences on a map. Flower essences are a method of vibrational healing in liquid form which can be used for emotional and mental problems. I believe that by using flower essences in this way, we can send healing vibrations to areas on the planet that are suffering from earthquakes, war, civil unrest, famine and other natural or man-made disasters. If enough of us were to participate in this effort, our activity could facilitate healing of the planet and its peoples, flora, and fauna. In my spare room, I have three maps. The first map has bottles of Harmony for Nature on the North and South Poles and on the seas. Harmony for Nature brings balance and harmony after trauma. The second map also has bottles of Harmony for Nature, and in addition, Angel of Peace, which brings Peace after turmoil, and Water of Enlightenment, which is for Courage at times of great distress. These bottles I have placed on various disaster areas and earthquake zones. I receive e-mail notification of all the big earthquakes from the Unite States Geological Survey site. The third map is for the thirteen ongoing wars and conflicts that are happening round the globe. For example, I have placed on Iraq both Calming of the Waters, which truly does what it says!, and Truth. Many people may have a bottle of Bach's Rescue Remedy in their first aid or medicine chest, and an old school atlas. I would encourage you to search them out. Make the intention to send the healing vibrations from the bottle to your chosen location on a map. If you have access to many different bottles, then you can play all the more! When I told a friend of mine about this project, she said that as soon as the London Bombings occurred, she got out a map of the underground or subway, and placed her essences upon it. Hopefully, there are many who are doing the same. Similarly, in this way, you can send healing to friends and family. Place the bottle of essence on a photograph or the person's name written on a piece of paper. Here is another thought: You can send love and blessings and well intentioned thoughts to anywhere and anyone. Love and Blessings could be sent to all those people in need, and the intention that aide, help, provisions will get to everyone that needs it. This could be done on a daily basis. Sending positive thoughts on our own is powerful. Collectively sending positive thoughts is hugely powerful. If many people put bottles of Flower essences on maps where there are disasters, wars and unrest, we can effect great change, and bring about healing. It may be that like me you have sent some financial contribution to those in need, but this idea is something you can do to help where you do not have a bottomless pit of money! This is also a project that can be ongoing. People by their thoughts and actions can change the world. We have the power to do great good, bring positive change, heal ourselves, the planet and its flora and fauna. We just have to want to do it, to care enough. |
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Animal Rescue is the name of a flower essence designed to rescue animals from anxiety and fear. Their anxiety and fear are especially prevalent at this time as the animals are aware of the earth changes and the anxiety felt by their owners; they pick all of this up, and experience anxiety themselves. Animals are supersensitive, and have abilities which we do not. They are neither dumb nor stupid. Animals are able to know about earth changes long before we do. Consider for example the elephants in Indonesia at the time of the Tsunami; they moved to high ground long before the storm hit. Animals (as are we) are connected to Nature, are part of Nature, and they are able to pick up the subliminal signals; they just know. We too have this ability within us, but have lost the use of it because we have come to believe that we are separate from Nature, not part of it. The animals know when storms, bad weather, rain is coming. Just watch your cats; they will be indoors long before rain comes. Dogs and cats know what you are going to do long before you do it, and often will be in a room or ready before you are. They pick up the mental pictures you broadcast (this is how you communicate with animals by thinking in pictures). The domestic animals that live with us or whom we have close relationships with, which includes horses and donkeys, know when their owners are in emotional turmoil and distress. Cats and dogs will come and sit with you if you are crying or upset. In fact, they work hard to take this emotional energy from us, and if they are allowed outside will discharge this energy to the earth. You may have noticed them rolling or shaking their legs when outside. If they are unsuccessful in discharging this human energy, then they become ill. Our domestic animals now display the same illnesses that we humans have alongside their own. Most human ills are caused by unresolved emotional trauma and baggage. It is part of the relationship and bargain that the animal kingdom has with us: we feed and care for them and they help heal us. It is a two-way street except this can become overloaded on the animal's part. The earth changes are causing anxiety in humans that we are not even aware of. Many people are in a state of anxiety for which they do not understand the cause. Mother earth and the nature kingdoms are in distress and because we are part of nature we are picking this up. Many people do not realize that the earthquakes are becoming larger and the volcanoes are quite active; the presence of unusual and severe weather is the most obvious evidence to the majority of people that something is happening on the planet. Humans are displaying anxiety in the form of road rage, our inability to slow down, and our frenetic life styles. The animals are picking up not only the earth changes but also their owners' reaction to it. Many of the animals have very angry owners and unfortunately in some cases crueler than before. The animals have to cope with themselves and their owners' anxieties. Your animals may be displaying anxiety in unusual behavior. Dogs may follow you around all of the time, they may go off their food, lie around, not be interested in what's going on, mope, they may start scratching or nibbling at themselves. Cats may be jumpy, run from room to room not knowing where they want to be, be unsettled and ill at ease. You may find your cat is your constant companion wanting to sit on your lap all of the time. Horses may begin weaving, pace in the field, and stand by the gate constantly waiting to be taken in. Horses ears may be back and heads up with spines shortened, displaying tenseness. Relaxed horses elongate their spines. They may show aggression and also be jumpy and flighty. It is for all of the above reasons that Animal Rescue essence has come into being; this is for the domestic animals. All other farm and wild animals are catered for by Harmony for Nature essence. These are remedies you can give to your animals to help them avoid anxiety. For more about this, please see my website at www.rosecottagefloweressences.co.uk |